No Regrets

Given that it's Friday it's only befitting to give an ultimate fling back. Not a very descriptive writer so see wid me. I lost my virginity to who I thought was my forever love and my mom summize that I was at college being a whore🙄 I felt so dirty and uncomfortable in my skin that I resented the fact that I had sex and I was no longer "pure". So I stayed celibate for a while, being bitter and angry towards myself and any man that was mad enough to approach me. It was my second year in college when I met him.

I was walking from the commissary one night passing a group of guys chatting I said good evening to them and was walking away when he asked if he could walk me back to my dorm and I replied yes as long as he could keep up because I walked fast. The first thing I noticed about him was that he smelled fucking good *drools*. I can't tell you exactly what he was wearing but I knew that he was just coming from work because he still had on a dress shirt and his tie had been loosened.

On our walk back to the dorm he told me how much he admired my smile and mannerism. When we finally got to the gate he was asking if he could keep in touch and I was like sure it wouldn't hurt. To be honest I was lonely and never had many friends around at the time. He wished me good night and left after I entered the dorm. I thought he was sweet. One evening in my boredom I invited him to come sit and chat with me in the garden. He seemed older and I later found out he was, that evening I felt we genuinely clicked because we talked about alot of things that seemed to interest us.

He even drove me to Devon house for ice cream then asked if I wanted to go back to his place to just chill for a while and he would bring me back to the dorm. He had an apartment that he shared with another male friend. I agreed, so when we fot there we all sat on the couch watching TV for awhile when his friend said he was going to his room so he'll see me another time. So it was just me and him watching TV until I felt him looking at me so I laughed and asked why he was staring. His reply "Because you are really beautiful", I don't know if I blushed but I felt hot so I told him that I was ready to go back to my dorm and stood up.He stood up, looked at me and I stared back. 

Without warning, he then grabbed my neck and kissed me roughly😯😯😯😯. Up until that point in time I had never been kissed like that in my life. Kisses that I've experienced were from inexperienced boys who were just learning what they wanted, this man knew exactly what he wanted. I pulled away from him and told him again I was ready. I stepped away from him and sat on the arm of the couch, he then let out an exasperated sigh and said let's go. So on the way back to school, we were quiet. But in my head I couldn't get over the way he kissed me and how he had his hands on my neck. For some reason I wanted more of that. Before I knew it and could say anything we were back at the dorm. I said good night and went inside. I heard his car screeching towards the back gate when I entered my room. We hardly spoke for a week until one evening after class I messaged him.... "I WANT TO FUCK" There was really no other explanation needed because I knew exactly what I wanted. I wasn't asking to be committed or to be loved. I just wanted to be fucked. Thoroughly and mercilessly. I wanted to shed the shell of a girl who was ashamed of her sexual being and I really felt I needed this. I held my breath as I waited for him to reply, which seemed like forever but he then responded BE READY IN 15 MINUTES

To be continued...